It's never easy, dealing with that sort of agonizing pain. There are people that will probably never understand the true sensation of their chest caving in-though I can imagine quite well just how it feels on this side of the monitor.
My heartfelt thoughts are given your way; recovery from heartbreak takes more than time, it takes the ability to take all the warmth, love, kindness and even the occasional shoulder to rant/cry on people offer to work toward healing and finally letting go. You are obviously respected here, and even though there are many that love your works and words...I would need a real body in front of me. I have had to have a real body in front of me.
I have gone through this type of pain a few times-the first time at a very young age and due to different circumstances. The only reason I am in front of this mirror now is due to a dear friend's intervention.
If you ever need to unload, please feel free to message me.
Sometimes a stranger (I've used a few strange ears in my time!) can be just as helpful as a friend.
thank you very much, i think you are right about that, it does take more than just time to heal, there are alot of factors involved unfortunetly. sorry to hear that you too have had to suffer this type of pain, i wouldn't wish it on anybody, and thank you so much for the offer to listen if i need a rant, i'll deffinetly keep that in mind for the days when i need a chat, i appreciate it very much
You are very welcome. I was given the opportunity to unload, I believe in paying it forward and doing the same for someone else. You can note me here or email me if you firstname.lastname@example.org.
that's great, the world needs more people who believe in paying it forward, thank you again, the past couple of days have been not too bad i guess, no where near the worsyt atleast but it seems to swing back and forth from not too bad to near breaking point, i'll add your email to my account thanks
I have just one simple thing to tell you... You're a fighter...I've never seen you back off from something, and I don't think this will worth to be the first time! If you need to talk I'll soon be home again, so we'll hear soon on msn maybe...or here! I hug you Dear! And as you can see from all these messages...we love you
thank you very much, yep i'm a lil fighter, the support i'm recieving helps keep the fight in me too, it's really nice to hear from you again, i look forward to seeing you on msn again, it's been a long time, thank you again and i love all you guys too
Well, I don't know how much my words could help you, but I can try. I swear you I understand that void you feel inside. I had it for such a long time. I know it's hard to find something to cling to, and nothing out there seems to be helpful for you. All I can say is that the only real help you could find is inside you. Do you know that strenght, the one which makes you stand up again when you fall? Find that strenght, because you - like everyone else in this world - have it, hidden somewhere inside your chest.
thank you very much, that actually does help a little, usually when i feel like this i watch The Crow and i can find that strength that you were talking about, it's being a little more difficult to find this time around, but i will keep searching for it, thank you again
Bro, not to be harsh, but there is NOBODY important enough for that 1 big option. Been there before. Ain't worth it. So "Man up!" and get back to LIVING a good life! Face all that shit head on and blast past it! I'm not telling you anything you don't already know, so just DO IT bro! Depression kills. Don't let it get the best of you. Beat the hell outta it!
No reason not to fight back bro. There's more to life than depression and an ex. Just dust yourself off and get back to enjoying life. Fucking grab life and don't let go. There's a lot to see. Trust me, I've been in some very good and bad places. Just need to choose what and where you want to be.
that's very true, i'm trying to make new goals to help me stay on track, i have times where i am completely fine with myself and what happened, but i don't know if that's denile or actaully the real thing, thanks for the pep talk, it helps seeing all the support
Alright here comes some tough love. Get the fuck over it! Did she define who you were? It's her fucking loss! Did she ever try to make you into something (even a small part) you weren't comfortable with? Did she really see you for who you are? Was she ever able to make you smile even when you didn't want to? A small bump and you crack, you're just showing her a weakness that you can get over! I know I seem harsh but it needs to be said...
harsh is good at times, harsh sometimes works better, a couple of those she did actually do, she was pretty defining for me, made me the man i am today and could allways make me laugh no matter what, i know to feel like this is weakness, i usually just keep it inside put on a mask to everyone else and pretend i'm fine while dying inside, thanks for the tough love it does help toughen the skin
You're welcome my friend, but what I meant when I said 'defines who you are' is do you need her around to remind you who you are? Again I hope you pull yourself out of this slump you're in.... or I'll somehow get to your house and give you a good kick in the ass!